I dont need to be good person who though. I am just fully enough to live myself and don't need to be caution someone hate me. 

Today, I totally exausted about 8pm and I couldn't control my hands and I really wanna find someone to eat 볶음우동 but I failed:< So just ate piece of bread and tea finally explode appetite :P and ate double order and sweet latte! I am scared my fat:< but....TT 

One of memo in this year is stop to buying any cosmetics except cleansing, sunblock and shampoo lines. Please! 

I want to bragging

I am not used to doing in strong:< I don't know why I did mild and sensitive. Even if I am doing well, exp is done fine but why? my voice is smaller and smaller and voice stream is weak. I hate it:< Hopefully  soon, overcome traumatic attitude sooner, please. 

Spring

Just I am, like you and wanna spend time with is nice. Honestly I feel breeze emotion afte I met you and I couldn't find how I express exactly about it but, clear thing is I like it. Am I need more reason for this? :D

#1

 Finally I realized I am not a emotional person. Really surprised myself. Because until last week I thought myself I am really, absolutely very emotional person. I have many reasonable ground about this assurance. Once I popped to crying at several points even petty, even unexpected normally people can't understand, but first I am crying, and I think myself this is so petty:< And often I had hard time in sad especially like today, rainy day, sunny day in winter, spring, summer and autumn. Honestly every time if I want or not I can be. So, how I can realize myself I am not emotional and I am just theoretically person do treated all things follow up my brain. Technically people faced others with their instinct. Therefore they can make expression and at least they can feel annoying someone because reflected their thinking. As part as I couldn't be graduated my kindergarden still or I was swimming in the pool of traumatic something. Nowadays I am fully interested in myself and analysis Who I am really. Anyway this is fun and helpful:>

This is real science

I am always difficult.

Yesterday, I am surprised by myself because I didn't know before I knew many abuse expression in English and many f world :<
Anyway, still I am upset, I couldn't explains very exactly, that dirty liar still shamelessly lift head and shake that fat gurry body.
Never do caution to other people, one comforting part is not just me but severe to me, always was throwing something to front of face or was bumped disgusting body to me, or hit me in disguise.
wahh anyway I am hard to keep my calm because of endless stress few days.
Depend on family and close friend but I am not prefer to chat repeatedly to people so bad thinking just piled in my mind and that moth look like wanna kill myself.
So I just focus good happening between me.
First, very kind attractive writer took text me, she send present for my cat friend!
And, super professor in my faculty, sent me suprised cheering mail to me with sermonic story.
How about my family. Mom, always pray for me, father! super fantastic, and cool my little brother, he promise, for fun, next time hit his shoulder :D because my bro is so big and muscle :O
Finally behind me, I don't know but many people helped me everyday.
So just pass the dirty part of life quickly and back to my right track.

Thank you xx

this is real science

yes, that was

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please don't read some to hold happy face

yesterday I had bad happening in my lab. nowadays I have finished lab leaders' duty by the end of Feb.
but professor request to fix cold chamber, usually lab leader do fixing, ordering  and arranging lab job, anyway I was doing that.
the problem is i dont have peaceful  relationship with next guy, and he eager to harass me, if he can says no of course, but, at least he looks like do that and all people around me already agree about it.
the reason what I used 'peaceful' is because there is not just only emotional problem.
few years ago he did sexual harassment in lab, and I definitely can said that is periodically happened to me (and few other female student too, it is too severe to me) after I entered graduated courses, and university human right commission decided disciplinary he must move laboratory but he baggared to me and my mother so we allowed he stayed lab. but I think we stupid. because after he never reflection himself he did abuse to me or did cowardly behavior repeatedly until yesterday, and I am surely can say he will do that in future.
anyway he have insisted to change company supported chamber room from few weeks ago, but he didn't find replacement .
okay if you do, but always supervisor wanna to result, not just we need to blah...
right after professor required to fix it, i found company and they came yesterday morning.
we fix started at 10:15 am, and remained temperature 4-5degree.
but technicians need to check outdoor fan so temperature changed little to 8-10degree. temperature is very sensitive factor so i kept a watch on continually.
at that time he and one more cheap guy saw that and they make rumor ghastly. someone to turn off the machine yesterday and that causes temperature decrease and he pointed indirectly, but pretty clearly blamed me.
I don't know exactly situation, because how just normal person can guessing the kinky people, but i finally realized they pooched stupid things themselves anyway professor heard wrong information the temperature abnormally increased in dawn and all samples gone.
I ask
is anybody look the measurement instrument degree screen real show that temperature? or is anybody have objective validity about this fact?
funny thing is nobody said yes and they insist about 11o'clock they felt in chamber not cold like ordinary.
finally professor knew all situation and text to me I know the truth and please don't make noise in this time against him.
I said I know I am not perfect but everytime he harass me and i am an indisputable victim.
he was over the line several times and I am so stressful everymoment because of he did abnormal behavior repeatedly why I always endure this?
but sooner I agree to my professor what is important to me now and just pass it.
another my senior worried and pat my shoulder,  thankfully this solve it, but I almost freak out two cheapshit, besides this is not first time you shit on my head. dixx
but now hard to remember so just try to pass it.
i am sick of that jerks.
frist disgusto, ok i understand you always did that and all people already fully understand you are jerk but second one?
that pathetic sometimes still mine and yesterday during he made rumor, nod something and make cutie pity smiley face to me and talk behinde me
and he can ask directly me but he wanna to shot off big news and just focus you pity fuxx attention so just pass me because truth is not important you jerk.
too pathetic, except it I don't know what I am saying.
hopefully I want to forget it as fast as i can, hard to keep harm emotion and hard to endure hurt moment.

funny things more
I still have the letter he bagar to me please forgive and don't make me go out
one more
if you look it, please stop to stalking,
if you shame it, but you don't have qualification to angry about it because this is what you do